Lifes complications...

So, I headed off to Pittsburgh yesterday once again. I swear I'm moving down here one weekend at a time!

Em and I had a late dinner at Pamanti brothers (after dancing around her living room like idiots and playing with the cats... ya know, the usual!) Following that, we headed out. We didn't really know where we were going but ended up at NYNY. We figured at least Bill lives right there so maybe we would see him and then Joey was supposed to be there too at some point, so I thought maybe I could speed our meeting up or something ;)

Anyway, we hung out with a bunch of fun people, Emilee got trashed and I just had fun... Bill got there around 12:30 and that helped things a lot. He didn't have a voice though :( I felt bad...

I saw a familiar face at the other end of the bar-- I was pretty sure it was Joey, but I didn't want to be an idiot and just walk up and be like... 'hi im stalking you'. So, I txted him. Sure enough, the boy at the other end of the bar pulls out his phone. I have no doubt now, but he doesn't yet know who I am... So I asked where he was....

We txted back and forth a few more times until finally I confessed I was there too and we met (with the help of my TRASHED cousin!)...

The rest of the night was interesting... We went to EnP with Emilee, Aimee, Bill, and Joey. Em and Aimee got rather philosophical and well... loud. Bill and I were the sober ones- I wouldn't be surprised if he blocks my number after all of that!

Anyway, I eventually got all the drunks home and then hung out with Joey for the rest of the night... Hes definitely one of the nicest guys I've met in a long time. I enjoy his personality a lot and we seem to have quite a bit in common. He was drunk and I was pretty out of it, but we still had a good time.(and hes hot) I'm looking forward to seeing him again, but I don't want to get my hopes up too much and jinx it... He may decide that he doesnt' like me sober or something...

We went to Pamela's for breakfast and it was fantastic :) I'm just hitting all the Pittsburgh landmarks this weekend!

Anyway, hes working then going to dinner w/ some friends, so I'm gonna go have some Em and Rob time I think (perverts, we're gonna go eat) I hope I hear from Joey at some point tonight... I think we're hitting the Eagle then going back to Clarion for a mini-road trip, and back to Pgh tomorrow.

Joey is so sweet... He makes a good Valentine :)

Robbie

long and winding road

The most important lesson to learn in life and with any situation is whether to stay and try to work things out or whether to turn and walk away. Either option gives you a degree of (often intense) pain and anguish, but one will ultimatley provide more joy and prosperity in the long run... Growth requires the temporary surrender of security, and that hurts sometimes, because often the things closest to you provide that security. Theres no need to apoligize for it, no way around it.... its the way life works

I wrote that about a month ago now... Just after my 1st day student teaching and only a week or so after the beginning of the new year. I'm removed enough to put that into perspective now I guess... Six weeks ago I had lost a boyfriend, someone I liked a whole lot, and my best friend pretty much all on the same day. Now I can say it was for the best. It wasn't painless by far, but it was the right decision, not that I was the one making them. It takes someone far from their comfort zone to realize that someone they thought was a great friend turns out to be exactly what everyone has always said they were at the time that their support is needed most. Even further to realize and finally admit that a relationship just isn't working, hasn't been, and can't be fixed.

So in a moment of total and utter lonliness I came to this realization: even if change is for the better, it hurts sometimes. I said it then to make people think I was coping a lot better than I was. I say it now with confidence. (truth be told, its an elaboration of a quote by Grace Sheeny) Had the events of six weeks ago not transpired, I wouldn't have met some of the people I've gotten to know, nor would I have had some of the great experiences I have. Life is certainly an interesting thing, isn't it?

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Happy Tuesday, stalkers!

I haven't had school on a Tuesday in quite a few weeks, so this was a rare treat. Actually I'm exhausted- but its all good...

I left school at 2:15 today since Mark was done with everything that needed to be done and my rehearsal plans were finished- so I got home early. I had all four choirs today, and by the end I had very little voice left. Things went well- I had Concert Choir all period for I think the first time and it went fantistically. We did some listening and worked on my piece. I have 17 days left at Brookville... Its going so fast!

Last night I decided to randomly IM someone (on one of my shopping sprees again) who actually seemed interesting in his profile. He was away, so I figured that would probably be the end of it, but he IMs me back... So we talk for awhile, and it was a good time. (He decided to be mysterious and not share his 1st name... I had to use my stellar detective skills to finally figure it out) Annnyway, eventually in our conversation he realized that hes heard of me and it turns out hes good friends with the hottest girl in the world: Jodie! Moreover, she had mentioned me meeting him a couple of weeks ago but I didn't want to stay out late on a Saturday. Moreover than that, we both went to RENT on Friday night... The world is such a small place. Oddest sentence I've ever typed: We've played with the same hair! (Jodie's)

Anyway, I was going to go down tonight and hang out with them, and was really looking forward to it but I have to try to get over whatever cold/flu I seem to be coming down with and get through the week at school... Being out until all hours tonight wouldn't be a good move although I'm bummed about it- but I was planning to go down for the weekend anyway so hopefully he will take a rain check ;)

Well back to my day, I came home at 3 and promptly slept until 6... I'm so run down lately. At least the feeling of lonliness has subsided a bit as I get busier with teaching and whatnot.. I realize though that its not as much me as it is the time of year. I'm definitely not the only one feeling some form of depression right now. Not only that but utter lack of motivation. If I could stay in my pajamas all the time, I would! Its like this here and with my kids at school. They don't want to do a thing. And further, these feelings of lonliness seem to permeate all the rest of my life, which just makes it worse. I'm sure having "someone" wouldn't totally solve all my problems.. it just seems like it sometimes! For all our sakes I hope the weather improves soon, and thanks to my friends who make my life barable and for the most part- fun...

So, im going to bed.

Later!

The only people you need in your life are the people who need you in theirs.

Grr.

If you have a boyfriend, don't have a personal ad.

its like, look at me, im a great guy, i can play the piano and do your taxes and tapdance across water, we'd be perfect together. Oh wait, I already have a boyfriend... so, be very very jealous.

Rob