What page to choose?

So, I was bored last week at home. I don't really know many people around Franklin anymore, and theres only so much job searching/chatting on the internet. So, I started looking through my old desk. I found a book that I got for my birthday back in 5th grade. I wouldn't have remembered that, but it was the only book of its kind I ever got. It was a Choose Your Own Adventure Book. I always hated them, but someone who came to my birthday party didn't catch that. So, I had this book. I was bored. What the hell...

So I'm reading along and I get to this page: To walk up to the front door of the scary abandoned house and ring the bell, turn to page 52. To turn around and go back down the stairs and not disturb the inhabitants of the big scary abandoned house, turn to page 111.

Erring on the side of caution, I decided to pick page 111. Being my luck, Page 111 read something like. Oh no, one of the boards on the stairs of the big scary house broke and you fell to your death...

Dammit, they let little kids read this stuff...

So, being the grown-up that I am, I cheated. I went back to the previous page and rang the bell. Page 52 was something like: Oh, this isn't an abandoned house, it belongs to Mrs. Hickerbottom who has just invited you in for some fresh homemade cookies, to accept turn to page 93. To be polite and exit to continue your quest to find the golden notebook (or whatever it was) turn to page 111.

Now, you're thinking, we already know 111 has death on it, why would he pick that? Well. I did. I wasn't paying real close attention to page numbers, and I didn't want any cookies anyway.

Of course, I died, falling down the stairs again. It seemed a bit more painful this time. And appropriate.

You see, it didn't really matter what I chose. Even if i had eaten the cookies, I probably woudl have left the house on page 111 again and fell to my death, never finding the golden fruitcake or notebook or whatever it was.

Cookies or not, our fate might just be sealed on page 111. We choose to indulge, be bold, or back out, and we still fall down the god damned stairs.

So... We go back to page 1 and start again....

Happy new year :)

11 hours, and finally... finally Sam and Froto kiss!

The homo eroticism in LOTR is too much for this boy.... Finally they did it... after investing 9 hours of my life in the movie (well more, because i saw the first one twice) They finally did it. The movie was wonderful... And even better that I saw it with Emilee. I don't bother learning characters names, so I refer to them as "the ET guy"... etc. The end was a little cheesy, what with the hobbits all bouncing on the bed. However, if i were a hobbit, I think I would probably do the same...

So, I guess its time for bed (couch) and another day of fun in Pittsburgh tomorrow. I'm going to bed alone as usual... Perhaps a little more alone than I have in a long time. I begin 2004 pretty much the same as 2003. Last January 1st, I went to bed alone too... Its not that its the most important thing in life... but I feel discouraged. And alone. Dramatic huh? at least i can keep a sense of humor...

Its time for a few gallons of ice cream and Beaches on repeat in the DVD player...

Robbie

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
Place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

Had a long talk with the now former Cassanova... he still wants to be friends... i told him to call me in a few days when he gets the chance if he really does...

As for me, im feeling too raw to do much right now, between all the fighting this week and this, I can't give anymore. I need to heal...

Robbie

As I live and breathe... Happy 2004

Spent New Years in MoTown with Emilee, John, Rich, and 500 other people... It was sooo much fun :) I love you guys ;)

Em and I couldn't decide what to do all day... We were both invited to different parties and to go out, so we were kinda torn with all that... So John called at about 6 and invited us to go to Vice with them, and we did :)

Drank wayyy too much... Said douchebag was there from last night, and I think I was pretty nice under the circumstances. Not that I'm not still pissed off.....

Eh, but whatever. Cassanova called :) I think that made my night....

Resolutions can come later... I'm too hung over
but happY :)

Robbie

Oh, and did i mention that they played "Lately"
I LOVE THAT SONG in its techno remix...

Im gonna go sing it to myself in the shower :) :)

Robbie

A fun night until a douchebag showed up

So, I woke up this morning way later than I expected, and spent the day cleaning the apartment (thats all I do anymore, so it seems) and getting caught up on my laundry. I meant to leave Clarion by about 2:30, but didn't get going until 4:30... Then I had to stop at Ryan's apartment and get him some black shoes, because he has the "perfect" outfit that requires them, apparently... So yeah, I did that and was on my way.

Plans for new years week:
be drunk for most of it... in pittsburgh.

So, I got to Em's at aroudn 6 and hung out wiht her cats. Cassanova was online, we chatted for a few.... Then she picked me up.

Em and I have pretty much the wierdest times ever, no matter what we do. Seriously, my most memorable moments involve her :) We called around a bit before heading to Sam's Club, where Em decided to get a membership. We made up a story about being newlyweds or something so I could get on the membership to, but they didn't buy it...

Oh well, I'll just have her get things from Sam's Club.... And I mean, I need a lot from there. 30 Mach 3 Razor heads... In my lifetime... Giant packs of individual Applesauce cups, Individual butter packets, tubs of mayonaise... You name it, they had twice as much of it as the entire City could use in a year. Bulk shopping is wonderful. I left with 24 blueberry muffins (for my freezer) some crossaints, butter packets, applesauce, lotion, and condoms (i just decided to be funny, but it really was a good deal....

Anyway, then we headed to the movies. We saw Elf. Normally, I wouldn't see a movie like that, but with Emilee it was a blast! We showed up 10 minutes late for it, I talked on the phone during it... and we generally had a great time (Buddy the elf, whats your favorite color) (just listen to my voice mail, you'll get it) After 2 diet pepsis, a lot of popcorn and some wings (just her on the wings) we headed out to Kareoke. I HATE SINGING KAREOKE! Plus the bar was dead... So we left (after singing "I got You Babe" and making fun of a guy) and headed to Pegs.

Now, I cuold be like a douchebag and go off about what happened next. Actually, First lets talk about the good... I had a great time dancing with Jodie Hott Scott was out of control dancing on me, Emilee was a blast as always, I saw Str8 Nate and Mike from CP, I met a new boy also named Nate who seemed as uncomfortable as I was, and generally we were jsut crazy. Unlike last week, though, douchebag shows up, gets smashed, and gets his "I can't get over Robbie, so I'm gonna make fun of him and do things to piss him off attitude". Now, on a serious note to him:

GET THE FUCK OVER IT. LIVE YOUR OWN GODDAMN LIFE AND STOP MAKING FUN OF PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE YOU DON"T HAVE ANYTHING INTELLIGENT TO SAY. JUST, GROW UP. You can't leave well enough alone. I considered you a good friend until tonight, despite the fact that everyone I talk to asks me why when you treat me like shit and talk about people behind their backs. For being "Not dramatic" you certainly cause a lot of unnecessary drama that should have been over with in May. The fact of the matter is, I would love to be your friend... but you went way too far. Every time I go to the club, you dance with people im interested in and constantly talk about me to other people---- telling them i'm a hoe, whatever else. Exactly what drama queens don't do, right..... IN my opinion, you're pointing out your own falws, not mine.... So grow up and leave me alone. And stop being fucking two-faced about it. If you were sharing your true feelings in the jerry springer fight you picked with me in EatnPark, then don't fucking pretend to be my friend and use me.

Ok, i feel better about that. Keep in mind, Im not saying who douchebag is. I think you can get that.

Basically, he was a dick tonight, he didn't exactly ruin it, because i think i had more fun dancing with my friends than he had trying to make me jealous and making out with random people. I just can't do that anymore.

We ended the evenign back at Em's, after a nice, quiet ride home. So much for Jealous, Immature people. Jodie and Scott headed to an after hours club but i'll be partying with them tomorrow (i hope) so its a good time for sleep. Night night all...

Robbie

let the good times roll

Less serious time... I decided to come out of seclusion today and have dinner w/ Tyler, then visit some other friends, then I called Eric, who I haven't talked to in forever! That put me in a great mood. We talked for about an hour while I was on my way home... It turns out, he lives in Pittsburgh now. My urban family seems to be buliding up there more and more these days... maybe i should work there next year afterall...

Anyway, we made plans to hang out tomorrow, then Im gonna spend the rest of the week in Pgh for new years and such with Emilee and him and whoever else is around (hopefully Jodie and Scott too) So.... life is exciting again :)

Robbie

Getting Serious... A New Year... New Goals

So, In 2 weeks I start my internship. (I like calling it that better than student teaching) With that, it's time to get a little bit more serious about my future, I suppose. I've been looking at job postings and trying to figure out where I want to go. Possibilities, North Carolina, Pennsylvania, Washington, Maryland, Flordia... Actually, the sky is the limit. Unfortunatley, I haven't found much in the way of job postings yet. However, its still early for next year. I could get a sub position for the rest of this year for $117 a day. THAT would be nice. Damn internship. The next 6 months are going to be intense... so I guess its time to get my act cleaned up and get ready! I'm scared... but excited... but nervous... but happy... yeha ;)

Robbie

Just to make sure i still got it

I went out last night... Completely didn't mean to, but it was soooo fun :)

I hit Ross Park Mall first, all by myself, more by choice than anything else, of course. I got some good deals. The girl at American Eagle I knew from school, and I also ran into Kenneth, who, as it turned out, I should have checked to see what he was buying because I definitely ran into him later wearing the same shirt as me that I bought like 5 minutes after him! Grr... I tried on like 50 outfits and only bought 3 shirts and a pair of jeans. What I get for going the day after christmas... either XS or XXL for everything! I must say I do love the new American Eagle though... very cute

After my excursion at the mall (which included a haircut... a last minute thought) I headed up to brendans and hung out with him, Kelly, Julian, Fran, Kevin, Zach, Ashley, and Roger. Julian was as cute as always :) It was the first I had seen him since finding him in my bed last summer, so it was nice *insert warm fuzzy feeling* Hehe

We played Balderdash and I won... I don't understand that... I hate board games and NEVER win at them. It was fun... Julian and I shared the box. (to write on.) I guess im spending new years with that crowd too, which will be a good time for sure.

So, I was gonna just stick around Brendan's, but Jodie wanted to go to Pegs... So, after playing phone tag for like an hour, I went to pick her up. We had an AWESOME time. We had a drink then danced the night away. There was a really cute guy standing behind Jodie while we were having our second drink. Our eyes kept meeting... If i didn't have a few morals somewhere, I definitely would have been eating breakfast with him this morning ;) Then Em met us and we hit the dance floor again. I danced with a guy named John (CP John was there... not the scary one, too... but thats beside the point) and Jodie and Em for the rest of the night. Jodie's neighbor Scott showed up at the club too, which was a good time. Hes nuts :) Appropriately they played the umm.. i don't know what the song is called, but with the line about lend me some suger, i am your neighbor... so that was fun :) I would lend him something....

Ok, enough of me being bad, I spent the night at Jodies after going to EnP (she lives like a block from there) and we're gonna do it all again next friday... I can't wait :)

Now im back in clarion with something like the flu... NO FUN

but whatever, I know I still got it ;)

Robbie