Another Year, what have we learned?

As I sit here on Christmas eve, waiting to play once again at I.C. for midnight mass, I wonder about where I am now as opposed to a year ago. I look back and find three posts. One from Christmas Eve, one from Christmas day, and one other. Despite every change in my life and every person that is there that hasn't been, I have the same thoughts and feelings today that I did way back then. Different people, different place that I call home, same old stuff. I want progress in every aspect. Did I? Am I closer to being that full human being that I keep wishing to be but am just out of reach from being?

I have a job this year, and 350 kids that I refer to routinely now as "mine." I plan 14 lessons a week and teach every one faithfully three times. I have my own apartment- which isn't much- but it IS mine. I've faithfully paid my rent for six months now. I have a shiny car, decorated a Christmas tree, and hang out with lots of friends. I have a boyfriend that lives 200 miles away.

Do all of these things get me closer to the goal? Did I really make progress? Am I really happy? Is anyone really happy, and if so, what happens when they are? I just don't know right now.

rob