Cedar Point... crossing the line

I got my new job today. They transfered me early, and its a dream job. I LOVE IT! :) :) I could actually stay and do it all summer. Lets talk about what I do. I walk around the food patios at Cedar Point and just talk to people, strike up conversations, answer questions, pick up dropped napkins... just random stuff that adds a personal touch to the guests day. Its a pilot program that is just getting off of the ground, and we're the only amusement park n the country with anything like it. So, Im being watched very closely by administration and such. Anyway, I did it for the first time today, and it was so fun. I just talked to guests... cleaning isn't even our responsibility! Its totally just talking to people. I get to wear a tie and have fun with people. And I get paid. Its a blast :)

That said, my personal life is pretty much in crisis. I think Ryan and I are broken up. I'll be talking to him soon... im a little worried about it. We blew up last night, but kareoke took prescidence over talking about our relationship. So... to me, that means its pretty much over. I was planning to move out today without saying anything... but i broke down and called him. So, we're going to be talking that over later tonight when he gets home... at least i think thats when he wants to talk to me. After all, he would have to pencil me into his busy social schedule. I don't want to be bitter, but I will say, I hope that his new friends or whatever are worth it. I hope they're worth losing me for good. And, I hope he hurts them as much as hes hurt me. I love him... but I also hope someone hurts him like this so he knows what it feels like. Maybe then he'll grow up.

And thats the last I'll talk about that.... Its not worth any more words.

Robbie

Cedar Point after thought

Sometimes that boy knows just when I need a phone call to cheer me up :)

Cedar Point, post number 2

Well, im in my 3rd week at Cedar Point... I came pretty close to quitting this week actually. I asked to transfer to patio relations though, and this morning I got it. So, as of next monday, I won't be a wagons food host, I'll be a patio greeter. I even get to wear a tie. Yippie, right?

I still don't know if I'll make it the whole summer. Even now that I got it, I still kind of have a feeling like I shouldn't be here. Im not really sure why, to tell you the truth. My job sucks until I actually transfer, then it should actually be good- I see the light at the end of that tunnel at least... There are just times here that I can be surrounded by people and still feel totally alone. Maybe this is one of those times. I really just kinda wish I felt like i was part of something here. To me, its a job. Ive met some good friends, but they're work friends- a lot like at home I have my real friends and my work friends, who seldom came together. Unfortunatley, here work is life... So, personal things remain tense. I just don't know what to feel or what I need to feel better. I suppose once I get my new job I will be happier, not to mention on a fixed schedule and doing pretty much the same thing every day. I'm looking forward to that part. I'm not looking forward to the nights of coming home from my happy job and really having nothing to do and no one to hang out with. Maybe I'm wrong, and things will pan out to be a little bit more fun than that. I hope so... One way or another, I will be looking forward to the end of this summer.

Thats all for now- its time for some retail therapy!

Ciao
Robbie