Soundtrack

I've come to realize more and more lately that music is the way that I organize my thoughts and feelings. I was randomly going through an old playlist and suddenly was transformed back about two years. Avril Lavigne was singing "I'm with You" and I was in the back of some boy's (who will remain nameless) car. Before we complicated things with thought and feeling, we just were. I haven't given that night much thought in a very long time-- but just a few measures of the song and I was back there, reliving the moment.

I don't know how crazy it sounds, but every major phase in my life has its corresponding sound track. The Coyote Ugly soundtrack takes me somewhere else. Driving across the causeway wondering if he likes me or not. Fiona Apple takes me to high school pining after a straight boy.

Daniel Bedingfield takes me somewhere else yet. Things were so complicated-- needlessly.

How about Tori's Mother. Summer of 2000. Beach. His name was Andrew, and I've not seen or heard from him since.

No More Drama, A New Day Has Come. Breakup of 02. Need I say more?

Dashboard Confessional. Yikes. DJR4. Wow. Counting Crows Baltimore... or Color Blind. Or Summer Rain.

A Hundred Years-- I was trying to make ends meet and student teach.

Small Enough by Nicole Nordeman-- how many times have I cried to that song. Once on I-80 heading for my future home. Here I am. Once a few Sunday's ago, driving around town trying to make sense of everything.

Superman transports me to my first day at Clarion. Tonight and the Rest of My Life takes me there too, with someone who I'm not spending the rest of my life with.

Papa can you hear me? Sit down, you're rockin the boat.

Since You've been Gone is my current soundtrack song... I can only wonder what I'll be thinking when it jumps onto my play list two years from now.

Who says music isn't important.