A less bitter post

This post is best accompanied by the song "Homeland".

Three more days at my Brookville Placement. The end is in sight... I'm exstatic!

Life has been good lately, no drama, no real excitement, nothing too special. Lots of road trips because I can't stand Clarion.

Although happy, I can't help but feel a little bit alone. Teaching has distanced me from the drama on a good note, and a lot of my friends that I have here on a bad note. I don't have a lot of really close friends, the people I consider good friends are what others would consider aquaintances. Unfortunatley, I'm not here to be aquainted with anyone these days except for a little bit in passing.

Such is life... summer will be nice, at least!

Boys suck. Not that that is anything new, but they do. I can't seem to find any who are looking for what I am... Its not as much about going out to clubs and being seen and talked about... I miss sending cute little notes to someone, going to musicals or movies, taking random walks in warming weather, holding someone while we sleep... Just the little things that when happening, we take for granted. And I want to take it slow... not because i want to keep my options open... more like because its more fun that way. There are only so many firsts... why not take time to enjoy them? There can't be much backtracking with someone you meet and jump into bed with. And I've done my share of that... never to any great avail. Holding hands doesn't mean much if you've already seen eachohter naked. I'm over sex and can live without that... its important, but not as much so as having someone to be comfortable with. So, is anyone actually looking for that, or am I right about being alone in how i feel about relationships?

Oh well, i'm over it.
just waiting for something extraordinary to come along i guess... but will i notice when it does?

School tomorrow, so time for bed... :)

Robbie