Little Earthquakes

What do you say when you should be happy for someone, but inside you're screaming, begging for it not to happen... Ryan told me tonight hes going to Cedar Point for the summer. Maybe I should be happy and shouldn't be worried, but knowing what I know about CP to begin with is enough to make me be pretty damn scared. Not only is it 4 hours away, it is also a big gay mecca. I just don't know how i feel about it, and the fact of the matter is... going there will make him awfully happy. And I'm left here devistated and wondering if things will be the same after hes there all summer. I can't help but be terrified that things will change. Just when I think things are great we have this looming over our heads. I don't know if i'm strong enough to get through this....