I miss simplicity...

Do you ever suddenly wake up and wonder how on earth you got where you are now... I'm having one of those times in my life right now. This week has been absolutely crazy, and filled with more drama and randomness than I ever would have thought.

Brendan and I celebrated our one year anniversary on Monday- one year anniversary of breaking up, that is. Its nice that we've become friends and can take all that in stride. I won't say I didn't give any thought to what things would have been like had things between us ended differently, but that was only a passing thought. I'm not attracted to him anymore or wish the past back for anything. I miss the stability and the naievety of the brendan-rob era though. This year has been Drama, pure and simple. However, its also been an array of experiences that I wouldn't trade for all the stability in the world. Some good, some regrettable, and all learning experiences. I can guarantee i slept a lot less this year... my first trip to pegs was about a year ago right about now... life is crazy...

I don't think i feel like getting into major personal things right now because its all too out of control... Bob and I had kind of a falling out on Thursday night (to be precise, he slapped me at the club for making out with a boy, who seems perfectly nice to me although bob can't stand him... I can only wonder why...) and subsequently Tyler and I are broken up, but are at least speaking now. I hurt him, and I never meant to, although it seemed like it wasn't going anywhere. The road to hell is paved with the best of intentions... Tyler reminds me a lot of me when i was his age, and for that reason, i think that we will remain friends eventually... Those are the basics... I could write volumes beyond that but really. The good news is, I'm alive, and the horizon looks bright... I just need some time to sort through the rest....

I will say that Saturday was the best retail therapy i've had in a long time! Sara and I met up at the truck Plaza and we left her car there and headed for Pittsburgh. On the spur of the moment, we decided to stop at Brendans and meet him and Kelly. So, the four of us went to the Waterfront, to B & N, Hollister, GAP, AE, etc... I got some new shoes and basically bought out the GAP. What can I say, my ass only looked great in the 50 dollar pair! :) We ran into Ryan as well at AE before we headed out to TGI Fridays for lunch/dinner. It was funny because he saw Brendan and Kelly and wondered why they were staring before he realized that it was my roomate... hehe It was just a fun day. We also stopped at Ross Park and I got the Norah Jones CD and the DVD of Room with a View. Yay for spending money :)

I'm housesitting for break, and basically remaining a hermit although I am trying to catch up with friends. I went to see Em last night and am having dinner with my mom tonight... its nice to have a little time to myself and try to clear my head. I think I know what direction I'm going now at least, and I know that the drama will simma soon.. Granted, possibly after several explosions, but it will. I hope I can remain friends with everyone in my life. You're all important to me.

Thats all for now...


Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song

Come away with me on a bus
Come away where they can't tempt us
With their lies

I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won't you try to come

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you

And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me
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In a place that won't let us feel
In a life where nothing seems real
I have found you
I have found you
In a world that's moving too fast
In a world where nothing can last
I will hold you
I will hold you

Our lives will change when tomorrow comes
Tonight our hearts drown the distant drums
and we have music all right
tearing the night

So stay with me
and hold me tight
and dance
like it's the last night of the world

Rob