Never a dull moment...

So yes, i realize its been practically forever since I have blogged... Its also 6 am and I should definitely be sleeping, but this is definitley more worthwhile

Things have changed a lot... yet they haven't in the past few weeks. Ife is just as confusing and full of as many dramatic ups and downs as usual. I've found that that depresses me... a lot. I feel like the little stone in the Zoloft commercial. It still amazes me that sometimes when I'm with a room full of people... or even just one person that I really want to be with... I can still feel totally alone. Fortunatley, moods like this don't happen too often. It has become clearer who the really important people are in my life, and clearer who are not worth my time.

We've partied... a lot... over the past couple of weeks. Some good, and some bad.... The IUP boys (as they are now called on my buddy list) have been up the past two weekends, which has been a blast (Along with Chad from Shippensburg). This past weekend, Brian, Adam, Ryan, and David were up along with Reed. Reed, as far as I'm concerned is quite a mess. The first thing he did when he got here was shoot up in the bathroom. Then he was kinda rude to everyone and to top it off, decided it would be a great idea to make out with Tyler. Now, Tyler insists that hes a great guy deep down... Which is dandy, fine and dandy... but people who do illicit drugs in my bathroom and kiss my boyfriend will not ever be high on my list. Grr. And if i get dumped for a heroin addict, i'm joining a monestary. No questions!

Anyway, Tonight i must say i had a wonderful time... I met emilee at pegs and we danced the night away. We all headed to EnP as usual, which was fun. Also a nice change to be the only Clarion homo there besides Pat. Also, Andrea and Travie wwere there from home, so it was like a little reunion :) My favorite IUP boys were there as well... It was just really a good time. Those guys are the best :) (waves to my favorites ;) ) I did feel bad for Brian though... he wasn't real happy for most of the night. Hes a really sweet guy, and i didn't like seeing him down... *hug*

I've been talking to a lot of new people around the gay world lately, and I certainly wouldn't trade any of them for anything! I looked around EnP and saw not really friends... but family. Its like a big family, i told emilee... not really a happy one a lot of the time... but an ever changing, growing family... I love all you guys :)

I don't really think this whole entry did much to satisfy my need to write things down or sort all the confusing aspects of my life out... but its life for now...

I'll write more sometime ;)
Rob

It’s really been a long time
Since I let somebody hold me
Since I felt safe in somebody’s arms, emm emm
You were a good friend I could confide in
But after all the lies he told me
I couldn’t let nobody in my heart
I was torn apart
All this time you’ve been right here
He’s been doing nothing but wrong
And though the best thing in my life was
Here with me all along



I never knew
Right beside me there was an angel
I never knew
You’d give my heart the wings to fly
Because of you
Everything in my life is changing
Turning it to
The kind of heaven that I never Knew