A fireside come to Jesus conversation

So, I'm kinda getting sick of people. Not saying that I'm not usually sick of people, but its getting worse. There are definite rifts forming among all of us for one reason or another- unnecessary rifts. A major dividing point is with Meagan and her friends- all of whom are either ex boyfriends of one of us (us being Ryan M, Brendan, and myself) or some equivalent reason not to like eachother. Meagan was talking to me about it the other day and my only response was... well, maybe they're bitter because you were friends with us first. A sad fact, but true. Honestly, they are the least of my worries... I don't really have much against any of them anymore, but I also can't trust some of them, and a friendship without trust really isn't worth my time or theirs. Again, sad but true.

And then there are the issues surrounding Ryan, my new boyfriend. Honestly, I'm happier now than I have been in a long time. I say that cautiously, but I really have a good time with Ryan and I like spending time with him and learning more about him and his life. For some reason, though, there are some of my friends that aren't happy about this. Apparently, I'm expected to be bitter and single. To hell with my happiness, right? I don't care, be bitter, be slutty, whatever. I want something more and maybe i'm on the track to it. At least I'm happy and it shouldn't matter beyond that right? (Gushy sidenote- i'm so obsessed with Ryan :) :) :) )

Then, there is Tyler. I'm assuming he learned a bit from our relationship. Of course, I'm the big bastard that cheated on him and makes out with someone else in front of him making him miserable and blah blah blah. This all nonwithstanding of the way he treated me- apparently pretending? not to care about me whatsoever, being distant, making out with Reed... none of that matters. I'm not really holding anything against him. I'm just saying, it takes two. Case in point, i don't believe that while we were going out that he was in clarion during the week ever... Hes been here about 3 times this week alone... hmm. I hope from all this he learned at least that if you actually do like or love someone you should let it show before they fall out of love with you. I just think people should see both sides of the story. It wasn't an out of the blue thing... it was a few weeks in coming.

I think the bottom line is that people need to get over themselves... or more importantly, get over everyone else. Live your own life and let others live theirs. I'm tired of things being a big dramatic mess, and I have much better things to worry about- I think we all do. Its sad that all anyone has to talk about is other people and in the scope of things going on in the world, its all pretty damn petty. Agree or disagree, but thats what I think. Perhaps, we can all be friends someday or something. Friends- that is- without ulterior motives or silly games.

That felt good.
Bye.

Oh, you're in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter and so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you, darling
And I would still be on my feet
Oh I would still be on my feet