Here we go... Headfirst into the real world

I graduate in 5 days. Its the culumination of 4 years of ha... no. Four years of just getting by.

Student teaching ends Wednesday. I can't wait! Job hunt is going well. I have an interview in MD and there is a local position now that I would REALLY love. More details on that later I suppose. As much as I want to get the hell out of western PA, it is the perfect place to work, with a great program- exactly what I want professionally. The prospect of moving to MD is good too. Ironic that I was thinking about that last fall for completely different reasons.

I need to slow down- I've come to that conclusion. Life is crazy, and everything i'm involved in is only superficial. Superficial lesson plans, superficial rehearsal plans at work, relationships... I'm doing everything half way, or so it seems.

I was really depressed last night. Probably a combination of sinus meds, caffiene, the adrenaline from the Venango Chorus concert, and the general gnawing feeling of lonliness that wafts over me even when there are people around me. Its really hard to explain.

I can't believe clarion is over. I won't even count it as the end of a chapter... its the end of a book.