Merry Christmas to Rob

Its been a long day...
Midnight mass was beautiful... At least the music part! I've officially worked for the pope for over a year now... whoohoo.

Two masses this morning. In between, I ate an english muffin at grandmas house. I was feeling a little lonely, Christmas morning, walking to church at 7:30. Last year was basically the same, but this year seemed lonlier for some reason. Last year was this plus being snowed in, so i didn't even make it to Franklin until the day after Christmas. Oh well...
My mom came over to my place around 11:30, I had the coffee made and the house almost clean.

So how about this. Both of my parents got engaged this week to their respective significant others. I think they're both afraid of being alone. They could probably do better. Thats kind of a rough day for anyone though if you think about it. I was relaying this to my uncle Dan at Christmas lunch at my moms parents and he nearly choked... He thought I meant they were getting remarried to each other! So, I guess things could be worse. Memories don't particuliarly flood back of christmases with both my parents. I was usually with my dads parents christmas eve while mom worked the night shift at the hospital, then my moms parents christmas day and for the rest of vacation. So, separate Christmases have been going on for years. Christmas morning is still kind of specical with my mom and Craig coming to my house though, so I enjoy that at least....

I came back to Franklin and went to dads... His girlfriend is insane, and a 2 beer queer (if even that) She went from zero to plastered in 0.5 sips. I swear... She was fine for the first half hour or so, then started making gay references. Its an uncomfortable topic for my dad... Just what I don't need.

Grandparents again at around 8 (way later than I thought) We had a very adult time for a change... the young ones from the extended family stayed home. So, Troy (step-cousin) and I were the youngest this time. We actually had a great time. Em i and I were totally insane. It was great...

The Collins house, across from the house where I grew up, always... every year... has large red and green lights outlining the front of their house. As I drove by I couldn't help being a little sentimental. I take pride in my independence... I like being independent and by myself a lot. But... I dunno. I feel lonlier right now than I ever have in my life.

I've got my cat to hang out with tonight, and a hot tub. So, I'll enjoy that.

Merry Christmas everyone.... I'm not really in the "Christmas Spirit" at all... But, nevertheless...

Ciao
Robbie